Last week, I got into an accident on my bicycle, resulting in a neck injury that has kept me from doing any studio work. For those of you that like accident details, I was doored, which in bicycling parlance means someone suddenly opened their car door in front of me. One second I was pedaling along, the next second I was flying through the air, and preparing to make contact with the bumper from a stopped truck in front of me with my face. It's amazing how when you are in an accident your brain is still processing and thinking, and what I was thinking was how much plastic surgery was going to cost to fix my about-to-be-smashed face. Somehow, I got my feet under me and rolled onto my shoulder, which hurt, but saved the bones in my face. Somewhere in between the flying and the sprawling on the pavement, I also tweaked my neck.
I work very little during July and August, and the day of my accident was the same day I was "getting back to work." I know I should be prepping myself for the holidays during the summer, but you know what?
Fuck the holidays. I'm sick to death of being a slave to the season. Being off work for another week gave me plenty of time to consider how screwed I am right now. I made all kinds of false promises to myself about what I would do this summer to tighten up my business, make new work, ramp up my marketing. All I did was get so lazy that I can barely answer emails. And, I gained weight from the gallons of beer I drank in my backyard in between naps. Honestly, I think I slept more in my backyard this summer than I did in my own bed. Here it is, almost mid-September and what do I have to show for it? A half completed new website and 5 pounds.
This is the problem: When the pressure is off, I'm off. My brain gets all floaty and vague. My goals get fuzzy. I forget that I have a job. For me to get shit done, I need to be under the gun. By the way, I think that expression should be the new "Keep calm and carry on" and someone should make a poster of it right now. And by "someone" I mean "someone else". I need a challenge, and a deadline to keep things popping in my work. And I'm ready! I swear I'm ready to get going again, if only I could turn my head...