Monday, February 25, 2008

back to reality

Have I mentioned lately how hard it is to be me? These trade shows can be really taxing. One of the things I find most difficult is coming home, back to reality. Not that I don't want to be home-- I do. But I have found over the past several years that when I come back after my trips, my groove is way off. I suppose it's normal, but knowing that I fall into the category of normal doesn't make it any easier. Part of the problem is that I extend these business trips back east because I have a lot of friends I want to catch up with, along with some important family members. So I can be gone for two to three weeks, which is just a long time to be away. And frankly, while these trade shows are worth it for my business, I have yet to have a super-successful wholesale show where I feel elated afterwards. You know when you have a really awesome show and you feel all the love from your clients and you can't wait to get back to the studio and make some new stuff? Well, a middling show like the one I just had in Philly generates, like, the opposite reaction in me.

I'm not looking for sympathy, but I do want to whine a bit. I can't help but question sometimes if I'm doing what I should be doing in my life. Maybe I need to completely ditch wholesale or maybe I need to invest more money into it; maybe I need to put all of my energy into creating a new line or maybe I just need to get pregnant and make sculpture. I must be totally warped to think that sounds easier right now. I did ask my husband recently if he would support me for a year if I closed my studio and wrote a novel. His answer was "yes", as long as I did all the cooking and cleaning. That sounded really great for about five minutes until I started thinking about the torture I go through as a writer. A year? Try two or three, darlin' . I mean, that's a real hell right there. Pottery hell is a goddamn picnic in fantasyland compared to writer's hell. But I have that ticket in my back pocket if I ever need it. And today it's burning a tiny little whole in my pants.


  1. Hi Whitney,
    I can totally identify with coming home from traveling and having your groove off. I used to have to fly all the time for business. Someone told me once that the soul needed time to catch up after a plane flight..that really sounded to me like how it felt.

  2. I know the yucky feeling after having a blah show. I even know what it feels like to have a really, really awful show. I'm looking forward to the feeling of having a fabulous one!

  3. I read something beautiful other day:
    "when I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me".
    It`s by Erma Bombeck. I hope you like it :)

  4. Hi Whitney,

    I came across your work on Etsy, and have been coveting your pieces for a while now. I hope you continue to share your creativity with us!

    (P.S. I blogged about your work on Etsy today, and just now saw you have a blog too. I look forward to keeping up with it.)

  5. Love your work and your blog.